Trigger warning
I’m Alone
I’m alone
My constant companion
Through the summer months
My shadow appears
The silhouette that carries me
As I walk
I can only lose it in the shade
As soon as I walk in the beaming sun
My shadow just tags along
When the sun is gone
I ask myself
Where has my shadow gone?
I’m all alone
I do not feel the same
Trauma of fibromyalgia took a part of me
A part of my personality shattered and torn
No matter how hard I try
I cannot regain the missing unknown part
Never quite feel the same in my heart
I never quite figured
A square peg in a round hole
My creative self made herself known
I feel like I have been re-wired
Reconfigured
Sometimes writing poetry against the clock
To make up for time lost
This trauma broke my personality
At one point, definitely, I was not me
I did not recognise me
Depression, lost in the mind blowing misty fog
I can never go back to being that me
Yet, pain and numbness continues to hurt me
I even lost my shadow that walks with me
Me and my shadow
Now never alone
Creative me
Slowly replenishes me
I don’t feel so alone
Toria
30/6/2022
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